"Mommy, what's a cow say?" He whispered.When I didn't respond immediately, he answered, "Moooo!"
A moment later he asks, "Momma, what's a dinosaur say?" I yawned. He continued with a "Rawr!!"
Just as I was closing my eyes again he says, "Mommy, what's a bunny say?"
This time I opened my eyes, puzzled. What does a bunny "say"??
Without missing a beat he responds, "Oh hoppy day!"
(That's right, he's TWO. Does he even get the joke? I'm not sure... but he sure gets comedic points in my book.)
I've been giggling for days now, every time I replay that moment in my head. There's no way to deny it, one of the most exhilarating days of my existence was when that little boy arrived... and the days have been pretty "hoppy" ever since.
Especially since I've been working at an OB/GYN office, I've noticed pregnancy and childbirth are the perfect parallel to what motherhood is like. You're going to grow and change, everything that you're used to will be stretched and you won't always like the results.
You'll be exhausted and nauseated at times, but you're only real concern is not about you at all - you want to feel the baby move, hear the racing heartbeat within your belly, see a tiny face on a black and white screen, hear that first irritated cry, see that beautifully misshapen head emerge from your body and put on your chest...
There are always going to be moments of intense pain and fear and panic - when you love someone that deeply, those emotions are unavoidable. But as cliche' as it is, you really do forget those excruciating moments as soon as you know your child is safe. It's a unique relationship and it certainly deserves to be acknowledged.
To all the mommies out there, and especially to my own: Don't forget that you may be the one and only person in your child's life who is capable of loving him/her unconditionally. You may not always be properly acknowledged, but your role is incredibly significant. May the things you've done "right" outweigh any poor decisions and may you receive a love that comes close to matching what you give.
Oh, hoppy Mommies Day, ladies!!
(**Thank you Ashton, Brianna and Gavin for making my life waaaay more meaningful**)
(Mom, I know I can reveal anything about myself and you'll accept me no matter what - thank you, I love you! Ma Cat, you did what you could with what you had - I know it was never easy. Thanks u xoxo! Annetti, you're a good mother. Thanks for embracing me.)